Sweet 17th <|:D

Heyaaaaaa. Udah lama gak nulis blog nih hehe.
I'm officially 17 btw :D yeaaaah! Tapi belum bikin ktp ataupun sim nih -_- tapi SIP sih udah punya.. ea eaa
So, i want to share my failed surprise birthday parteeh. Here we go...
Di mulai dari jumat. Di hari jumat itu gue ngerasa lagi didiemin pacar (ea eaa udah 17 udah punya pacar dong B) next time i'll write about that guy :) ). Untung temen temen gue gak sok sok drama queen ngerjainnya. Gak dismsin seharian, gak dikasih kabar...00:00 14 Sept 2013 di telfon sama pacar. Ngangkatnya setengah sadar. B: happy birthday ya sayaang, semoga makin *blablabla* |V: hee iya makasih ya sayaaang :***...udah deh tuh ngobrol lumayan lama. ini beberapa bagian yg menurut gue lucu V: Kamu nyanyi dong| B: nyanyi apa? | V: happy birthday  laah -_- | B: happy birthday to you...asdfghjkl...udah yaa hehe | V: "......" . And this V: ulang dong doanya, tadi aku dengernya setengah sadar soalnya. hehe | B: haha *ulang wishnya*. our sweetest conversation on the phone :3
As usual, gue ke sekolah buat eskul. Awalnya sih gue biasa aja, wong udah yakin bakal ada yang dateng ke sekolah :p dan ternyata itu semua bener. Dimulai dari ngeliat penampakan kinyot sama tingting di sekolah sampe ngeliat penampakan si pacar. Gak berapa lama abis ngeliat penampakan si pacar di sekolah tiba tiba ada sms masuk..B: Yang sorry aku ga bisa dateng. Capek. Dalem hati gue, laaah gue yang mau ketawa jadinya hahaha. Abis itu gue ditemenin sama asul-bila , then gue ditinggalin sama bila berduaan sama asul -_- gak berapa lama mereka dateng. but i just looked the guy with his hipster glasses bawa kue dengan lilin angka 1 dan 7 diatasnya. unyu :3 udah deh, momen momen selanjutnya udah gak bisa diungkapkan dengan kata kata :'''''''' All i want to say thanks for the surprise: bila,kinyot,ayu,nasa,nur,maudy,fida,asul and especially for my man :*. THANK YOU GUYSS! *kiss attack for them*.

Ben

Ben the two of us need look no more
We both found what we were looking for
With a friend to call my own I'll never be alone
And you my friend will see you've got a friend in me
(you've got a friend in me)

Ben you're always running here and there
(here and there)
You feel you're not wanted anywhere
(anywhere)
If you ever look behind and don't like what you find
There's something you should know you've got a place to go
(you've got a place to go)

I used to say "I and me"
Now it's us now it's we
(I used to say "I is me")
(now it's us now it's we)

Ben most people would turn you away
(turn you away)
I don't listen to a word they say
(a word they say)
They don't see you as I do I wish they would try to
I'm sure they'd think again if they had a friend like Ben

Like Ben
Like Ben
Like Ben

Au revoir

Hey bloggers :D long time no curcol nih ;) ehehe. There's many stories in my mind nih. but  i wanna share a bit with you, key? :] So let's start. Nowadays, dont take any promises too seriously. Trust me, it hurts. I couldn't agree more with that statement #ea. Iya jangan gampang percaya. Maybe it's over, i dont wanna get hurt anymore. And of course you could be happier with yours. Gak tau sih siapa yang salah but if i did, i want to apologize to you. Or if you did, i already forgive you wholeheartedly kok #tsaah. Even though so many memories before, i know it's so hard to erase them, but at least i'll try. But the important thing is the experience. i can learn from it. We denying each other. we must do, for me, you and yours too.  I dont know until when. But i know we can back as just friend, without funny feeling or anything we had, soon. Your Friendship is a Special Gift, Generously Given, Happily Accepted, and Deeply Appreciated.  That's all i want to share, bye :)

poetry

Aku mencintaimu dalam hening
karena aku tak kuasa menyusun bahasa
yang sempurna untuk menyampaikan maksudku
mungkin memang tak ada
kata kata yang diciptakan manusia
melebihi kata cinta
Seperti rasaku ini, padamu
Jadi kembali
Hanya hening yang menemani
Saat aku menginginkanmu
Memenuhiku.

Aku tak pernah sejauh itu
Jika kau menengadah ke langitmu malam ini
Kau akan menemukanku disana,
Tengah menatapmu dengan terpesona
Sesungguhnya,
Aku telah lama menitipkan rasa ini ke jagat raya
Waktu hanya meminggirkan kenangan, tapi tidak rasa ini padamu
Lewat cahaya mentari yang kan menyapamu esok pagi
Kau akan menyadari
Aku, tidak pernah pergi

Aku kini hanya bertahan
Pada benang tipis yang kau ulurkan
Yang bahkan bila itu putus
Kau mungkin tidak merasakannya
Tapi aku akan jatuh
Dan mati

source: kaskus

TAYLOR SWIFT - RED

Loving him is like driving a new Maserati down a dead-end street

Faster than the wind, passionate as sin ending so suddenly

Loving him is like trying to change your mind once you're already flying through the free fall

Like the colors in autumn, so bright just before they lose it all

Losing him was blue like I'd never known

Missing him was dark grey all alone

Forgetting him was like trying to know somebody you never met

But loving him was red

Loving him was red

Touching him was like realizing all you ever wanted was right there in front of you

Memorizing him was as easy as knowing all the words to your old favorite song

Fighting with him was like trying to solve a crossword and realizing there's no right answer

Regretting him was like wishing you never found out that love could be that strong

Losing him was blue like I'd never known

Missing him was dark grey all alone

Forgetting him was like trying to know somebody you never met

But loving him was red

Oh red

Burning red

Remembering him comes in flashbacks and echoes

Tell myself it's time now, gotta let go

But moving on from him is impossible

When I still see it all in my head

Burning red

Burning, it was red

Oh losing him was blue like I'd never known

Missing him was dark grey all alone

Forgetting him was like trying to know somebody you never met

'Cause loving him was red

Yeah, yeah red

We're burning red

And that's why he's spinnin' 'round in my head

Comes back to me, burning red

Yeah, yeah

His love was like driving a new Maserati down a dead-end street

For you. For me. For us.

Time can heal a broken heart, but time can also break a waiting heart. Agree? :))

Gravity

Something always brings me back to you.

It never takes too long.

No matter what I say or do I'll still feel you here 'til the moment I'm gone.

You hold me without touch.

You keep me without chains.

I never wanted anything so much than to drown in your love and not feel your rain.

Set me free, leave me be. 

I don't want to fall another moment into your gravity.

Here I am and I stand so tall, just the way I'm supposed to be.

But you're on to me and all over me.

You loved me 'cause I'm fragile.

When I thought that I was strong.

But you touch me for a little while and all my fragile strength is gone.

I live here on my knees as I try to make you see that you're everything I think I need here on the ground.

But you're neither friend nor foe though I can't seem to let you go.

The one thing that I still know is that you're keeping me down

You're on to me, on to me, and all over...

Something always brings me back to you.

It never takes too long.

Timing is Everything

When the stars line up
And you catch a break
People think you're lucky
But you know its grace

It can happen so fast
Or a little bit late
Timing is everything

You know I've had close calls
When it could've been me
I was young when I learned just how fragile life can be
I lost friends of mine
I guess it wasn't my time
Timing is everything

And I could've been the child that God took home, 
And I would've been one more unfinished song 
And when it seems a rhyme is hard to find
That's when one comes along
Just in time

I remember that day
When our eyes first met
You ran into the building to get out of the rain
Cause you were soaking wet
And as I held the door 
You wanted to know my name
Timing is everything

And I could've been another minute late
And you'd never would've crossed my path that day
And when it seems true love is hard to find
That's when love comes along
Just in time

You can call it fate
Or destiny
Sometimes it really seems like its a mystery

Cause you can be hurt by love
Or healed by the same
Timing is everything

It can happen so fast
Or a little too late
Timing is everything

brain-heart-storming

I dont know what happened to me...but i think this song can speaks what i feel now. Every cloud has a silver lining, right? :)

Jason Mraz - Song for a friend

Well you're magic he said

But don't let it all go to your head

Cause I bet if you all had it all figured out

Then you'd never get out of bed

No doubt

Of all the thing's that I've read what he wrote me

Is now sounding like the man I was hoping

To be

I Keep on keeping it real

Cause it keeps getting easier, he'll see

He's the reason that I'm laughing

Even if there's no one else

He said, you've got to love yourself

You say, you shouldn't mumble when you speak

But keep your tongue up in your cheek

And if you stumble onto something better remember that it's humble that you seek

You got all the skill you need,

Individuality

You got something

You call it gumption

You call it anything you want

Because when you play the fool now

You're only fooling everyone else

You're learning to love yourself

Yes you are

There's no price to pay

When you give and what you take,

That's why it's easy to thank you

You...

Let's say take a break from the day

And get back to the old garage

Because life's too short anyway

But at least it's better then average

As long as you got me

And I got you

You know we'll got a lot to go around

I'll be your friend

Your other brother

Another love to come and comfort you

And I'll keep reminding

If it's the only thing I ever do

I will always love

I will always love you

Yes you

I will always, always, always, always love

I will always, always love

I will always, always love, love

Climb up over the top.

Survey the state of the soul.

You've got to find out for yourself whether or not you're truly trying.

Why not give it a shot?

Shake it. Take control and inevitably wind up

Find out for yourself all the strengths you have inside of you.

N'Sync - Gone

There’s a thousand words that I could say
To make you come home
Oh, seems so long ago you walked away
Left me alone
I remember what you said to me
You were acting so strange
and maybe I was too blind to see
That you needed a change

Was it something I said
To make you turn away?
To make you walk out and leave me cold
If I could just find a way
To make it so that you were right here
But right now

I’ve been sitting here
Can’t get you off my mind
I’ve tried my best to be a man and be strong
I’ve drove myself insane
Wishing I could touch your face
But the truth remains

You’re gone
You’re gone
Baby you’re gone
Girl you’re gone, baby girl, you’re gone
You’re gone
You’re

I don’t wanna make excuses, baby
Won’t change the fact that you’re gone
But if there’s something that I could do
Won’t you please let me know?
Time is passing so slowly now
Guess that’s my life without you
and maybe I could change my every day 
But baby I don’t want to

So I’ll just hang around
and find some things to do
To take my mind off missing you
and I know in my heart
You can’t say that you don’t love me too
Please say you do

Yeeaah

I’ve been sitting here
Can’t get you off my mind
I’ve tried my best to be a man and be strong
I Drove myself insane
Wishing I could touch your face
But the truth remains

You’re gone
You’re gone
You’re gone
You’re gone…you’re gone.. you’re….
Gone

Ohh

Oh what’ll I do
If I can’t be with you
Tell me where will I turn to
Baby where will I be
Now that we are apart
Am I still in your heart? 
Baby why don’t you see?
That I need you here with me
Oohhh…

I’ve been sitting here
Can’t get you off my mind
I’ve tried my best to be a man and be strong
I’ve drove myself insane
Wishing I could touch your face
But the truth remains

Been sitting here
Can’t get you off my mind
I’ve tried my best to be a man and be strong
I drove myself insane
Wishing I could touch your face
But the truth remains

You’re gone
You’re gone
You’re gone
You’re gone
Gone
You’re gone

But the truth remains
You’re….

Bleeding Love

Closed off from love, I didn't need the painOnce or twice was enough and it was all in vainTime starts to pass, before you know it you're frozen
But something happened for the very first time with youMy heart melted to the ground, found something trueAnd everyone's looking 'round, thinking I'm going crazy
But I don't care what they say, I'm in love with youThey try to pull me away but they don't know the truthMy heart's crippled by the vein that I keep on closing
You cut me open and IKeep bleeding, keep, keep bleeding loveI keep bleeding, I keep, keep bleeding loveKeep bleeding, keep, keep bleeding loveYou cut me open
Trying hard not to hear but they talk so loudTheir piercing sounds fill my ears, try to fill me with doubtYet I know that the goal is to keep me from falling
But nothing's greater than the rush that comes with your embraceAnd in this world of loneliness I see your faceYet everyone around me thinks that I'm going crazyMaybe, maybe
But I don't care what they say, I'm in love with youThey try to pull me away but they don't know the truthMy heart's crippled by the vein that I keep on closing
You cut me open and IKeep bleeding, keep, keep bleeding loveI keep bleeding, I keep, keep bleeding loveKeep bleeding, keep, keep bleeding loveYou cut me open
And it's draining all of meOh, they find it hard to believeI'll be wearing these scars for everyone to see
I don't care what they say, I'm in love with youThey try to pull me away but they don't know the truthMy heart's crippled by the vein that I keep on closing
You cut me open and IKeep bleeding, keep, keep bleeding loveI keep bleeding, I keep, keep bleeding loveKeep bleeding, keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and IKeep bleeding, keep, keep bleeding loveI keep bleeding, I keep, keep bleeding loveKeep bleeding, keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and IKeep bleeding, keep, keep bleeding love

Berlin

Your single side won't be denied

Your melodramatic instant sign

Is beyond my reach

Missing you is just too much

Why don't you just figure it out?

You're fading

And I'm still waiting

Those words that you wrote on the postcard

Is as cold as the winter chill

Seems to me it's not a priority

It's just another little sign

That you're fading

And I'm still waiting

And you'll fade away

Is all,

Won't you see the sign?

And sing, la la la...

Find a way

by: Safetysuit

Hold on, what's the rush, what's the rush we're not done are we
Cause I don't need to change this atmosphere we've made if
You can stay one more hour, can you stay one more hour

You know I'm gonna find a way to let you have your way with me
You know I'm gonna find a time to catch your hand and make you stay

Hold on, I'll be here when it's all done you know
Cause what's the point in chasing if I can't enjoy your face and
We can't be wrong tonight, can we be wrong tonight

You know I'm gonna find a way to let you have your way with me
You know I'm gonna find a time to catch your hand and make you stay
I don't care what clothes you wear, it's time to love and I don't care
You know I'm gonna find a way to let you have your way with me

And if I was running, you'd be the one who I would be running to
And if I was crying, you would be lining the cloud that would pull me through
And if I was scared, then I would be glad to tell you and walk away
But I am not lying, I am just trying to find my way in to you

You know I'm gonna find a way to let you have your way with me
You know I'm gonna find a time to catch your hand and make you stay
I don't care what clothes you wear, it's time to love and I don't care
You know I'm gonna find a way to let you have your way with me

If I was running
If I was crying
If I was scared
You know I'm gonna find a way to let you have your way with me

officially 16th

hai neptunus, hari ini saya 16 tahun lho :D iya setahun lagi saya punya ktp, entar bisa ikut nyoblos deh...kalo nyoblos hati makhluk yang satu itu bisa gak ya nus... #eaaa hahaha. iya banyak yang doain saya nus. mulai dari makin cantik, makin pinter, cepet punya pacar, bisa move on, gak friendzone lagi, sampe cepet besar...yang terakhir ambigu ya nus -__- iya hari ini saya dikerjain nus. tapi mereka ngerjainnya gak pro nus ahaha. terus dapet surprise kecil dari temen temen deket. iya there's someone that i cant say his name. dia disitu nus. yaa ini semua pasti gak luput dari kerjaan mereka nus -_- sebenernya udah bete tadi. and he pretend that he should go somewhere idk, dia selow selow aja ga ngucapin nus , pulang cuma pamit sama temennya -__-disitu rasanya pengen naik tornado aja nus! #lah -_- terus fida pura pura ambil jamnya yang ketinggalan di mushola. jadi ceritanya saya pengen traktir fida,amel,barra, dafin karena mereka doang yang ada disekolah. yaudah disitu rasanya udah pengen pulang aja, tapi mesti traktir mereka berempat. dan saya memutuskan buat cepet cepet ke kantin. and suddenly....they came up to me :] beberapa muffin yang disusun jadi kue ulang tahun, lilin angka 1 dan 6 yang udah mulai nyala..satu persatu mereka keluar dari persembunyiannya. lagu happy birthday pun berkumandang...#halah -_- iya disitu saya mulai speechless nus. apalagi when he came out from that place...terharu pasti ya nus. yaa after that tradition, he must go with his buddies. dia ada dan ngucapin itu rasanya udah cukup. abis itu muka saya abis nus sama nasa,bila,monic,nta,fida,khansa di peperin sama muffin -_- kita mutusin buat gak pulang dulu. eh ternyata, we're still in the same building :> bila,khansa,nta,fida,amel pulang duluan. tinggal monic,nasa sama saya nus. kita bertiga nunggu di lobi sekolah karena monic masih ada urusan sama voice clubnya. disitu saya ngeliat dia. berdiri dibalkon. kayak lagi nyari seseorang nus. he asked me "lu kemana vin?" via text message. "di lobi sama nasa monic" i said. terus saya ngeliat ke arah lab. terus saya ke lab, and we had a little kit-kat. ah rasanya udah lama gak kayak gini. i cant deny nus, i still got that feeling. i can feel the wind...and it still the same wind. karena dia ada kesibukan lain, saya berangkat les bareng nasa monic nus. thank you for the sweet friday. even though im not on your side yet..i still wait for that moment. and thank you for the little surprise bila,nasa,fida,monic,nta,khansa,amel and u :> HAPPY BIRTHDAY VINNY <:d d--="d--">

11th part 1

hey bloggers :D apa kabar? lama tidak bersua :] ehem mau cerita nih. gue udah kelas 11 dong sekarang :D yes, im officially sophomore now :] iya sekarang gue menimba ilmu dikelas 11 ipa 4 #sumurkaliditimba -__- ahahaha. oh ya gue........sekelas.....lagi.......sama........ah never mind :") iya sekarang punya kelas baru, temen baru,jabatan baru, tapi status gak baru baru #curcol ahahaha. nama kelasnya ESCOUTION (eleven science four nation) kece kan nama kelasnyaaaa :D semoga keadaan kelasnya sekece nama kelasnya ya *amin*. iya tugas makin banyak, pr numpuk,materi makin susah, gak ada yang nyemangatin belajar #yangterakhirbukan #kode -___- iya gurunya juga makin killer. and im being a great procrastinator yet -_- semoga hasrat kemalesan ini semakin berkurang seiring berjalannya waktu *amin*. tahun tahun sophomore kayak biasanya tahun tahun sibuk ngurusin pelajaran,eskul,les. untung cuma ikut satu eskul .-. gue ikut ec aka english club. divisi scrabble, ikut ya adik adik :D #plak -_- gue dipercayakan sebagai menteri keuangan *pasang muka nanar*. sekian dulu ya post kali ini. tenang ini masih part 1 kok. there's still another part that i will share with you :] #eaaa.  dadaah :D

one and only

You've been on my mind
I grow fonder every day,
Lose myself in time
Just thinking of your face
God only knows
Why it's taken me so long
To let my doubts go
You're the only one that I want

I don't know why I'm scared, I've been here before
Every feeling, every word, I've imagined it all,
You never know if you never try
To forgive your past and simply be mine

I dare you to let me be your, your one and only
Promise I'm worthy to hold in your arms
So come on and give me a chance
To prove that I'm the one who can
Walk that mile until the end starts

If I've been on your mind
You hang on every word I say
Lose yourself in time at the mention of my name
Will I ever know how it feels to hold you close?
And have you tell me whichever road I choose you'll go

I don't know why I'm scared 'cause I've been here before
Every feeling, every word, I've imagined it all,
You'll never know if you never try
To forgive your past and simply be mine

I dare you to let me be your, your one and only
I promise I'm worthy to hold in your arms
So come on and give me a chance
To prove that I'm the one who can
Walk that mile until the end starts

I know it ain't easy, giving up your heart
I Know it ain't esay, giving up your heart

(Nobody's perfect, trust me I've learned it)
I know it ain't easy, giving up your heart
(Nobody's perfect, trust me I've learned it)
I know it ain't easy, giving up your heart
(Nobody's perfect, trust me I've learned it)
I know it ain't easy, giving up your heart
(Nobody's perfect, trust me I've learned it)
I know it ain't easy, giving up your heart

So I dare you to let me be your, your one and only
I promise I'm worthy to hold in your arms
So come on and give me a chance
To prove that I'm the one who can
Walk that mile until the end starts
Come on and give me a chance
To prove that I'm the one who can
Walk that mile until the end starts.

thursomeday

Nus hari ini saya seneng! seneng kenapa hayoo? ahaha pasti kamu tau lah nus. saya sih seneng, gatau deh kalo orangnya ._. ya saya seneng karna akhirnya hari ini saya bisa kumpul lagi sama irma,ira,rani,kiki :D lengkap kaaaaan ahahahahaha. kita berlima jomblo...akhirnya lima limanya jomblo -_- biasanya ira doang yang punya pacar. atau kiki sama ira,rani yang ga jomblo. iya cuma saya sama irma doang yang bertahan sebagai jomblo selama temenan bertahun tahun :") tapi irma gandrungnya ga tahan nus -_- dan semuanya itu kaka kelas. ira juga gandrung nus. kaka kelas, temen seangkatan beeeeh. tapi sekarang lagi jadi jones akut. dia lagi pengen banget punya partner -_- semoga dia cepet punya ya nus. saya juga ya :") kalo kiki baru putus. dia ga kuat ldr-an. iya depok-tangerang emang jauh ya nus. kalo rani lagi sibuk belajar. tapi saya tau sih nus, itu cuma alibinya dia doang. banyak berita yang-sebenernya-udah-ketebak sama saya sih nus. salah satunya tentang kabar cibenk putus sama pacarnya. ya deep condolence buat cibenk, tapi life must go on. ya gak, nus? :)) sekian dulu ya nus. kapan kapan cerita lagi :]

P.S: saya nyimpen perahu kertasnya.

Salam neptunus

Agen neptunus non-aquarius

Blue Sky Collapse

As I walk to the end of the line

I wonder if I should look back

To all of the things that were said and done

I think we should talk it over

 

Then I noticed the sign on your back

It boldly says try to walk away

I go on pretending I’ll be ok

This morning it hits me hard that

 

Still everyday I think about you

I know for a fact that’s not your problem

But if you change your mind you’ll find me

Hanging on to the place

Where the big blue sky collapse

 

As I stare at the wall in this room

The cracks they resemble your shadow

When everyday I see time goes by

In my head everything stood still

 

I’m waiting for things to unfreeze

Till you release me from the ice block

It’s been floating for ages washed up by the sea

And it’s drowning, thought you should know that

 

You see people are trying

To find their way back home

So I’ll find my way to you